Hanging On

Something has been on my mind lately. Everyday we meet new people. The faces go by us at all times during the day. And sometimes, you come across a face that makes you stop for a moment and want to explore it more. So, you take a chance and you socialize. You might hang out, go out on a date or just have sex on their apartment floor. Then you come to a bump in the road. You've changed your mind. You've received something from the exchange and are not sure where to go next. Some continue to hold onto the connection, but why do we do it? Are we looking for something more to gain from the experience. To push that even further, are we only in it for the return?

Don't get me wrong, I understand the need for relationships and connections, but why the need to hang on? Are we genuinely interested in this person or are we afraid to admit to ourselves that we've changed our minds?

So we go with it. Ignoring the fact that it is unwanted and keep fulfilling an empty something. Fearful that, if we confront the individual with the fresh lack of interest, they might blow up on us and make the situation even worse. But, in the end, by continuing it, we are only making that final situation even more impending doom and a sharper knife.

This is something that seems to go on a lot and I see it everyday, not only with my friends but even with myself. I'd be lying if I didn't admit to holding on to a friendship, even though there is a not much interest. I may not have a desire to see the person right now but who knows, I may in the future? Is that right?

I am going to look further into this and come back to writing it out.